I know I said that I would write the next blog on being lukewarm but thats not whats on my heart right now. It's not on my heart because I am not lukewarm. Sometimes we try to be the Holy Spirit and the Lord has told me this is your time to be the student so STOP preaching. Sometimes life can be so hard and you're wondering what the heck is going to happen. I know that all things happen for the goodness of God or all glory to God. Nothing just happens God always works, Blessed is the one that knows it.
"Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." -Romans 12:2
The next thing step in my heart transplant is preping myself. God has been ready for me for almost
21 years and He was and still is waiting patiently for me to get ready. Like I said before I am not lukewarm so it's not that I'm getting ready for God to be the head of my life. This preperation is for what God's will is for me next. I don't know what it is either, but I know it's BIG! I'm in the door and the Lord has closed the door and locked it and threw away the key. To me the hardest part is over. In this relationship that I'm having with Christ we are doing very well thanks to Him! I have gotten to know Him a lot more on an intamite level. Now, its time for some fun. After two weeks of isolation from my friends. I have started to hang out with my friends a little more but I still feel like God is training me to make time for Him everyday! Because I have surrendered my life to Christ the Holy Spirit is more clear than before. Everday the Lord woo's me into his arms by using the Holy Spirit to tell me "It's that time, I want to spend time with you alone." Now ladies, isn't that what you want to hear from a man? I know I'm going to want to. God wants you to want Him the most. So with that direction I'm going to fall in love with myself. I'm going to treat myself just like Jesus would if He were still on the earth physically.
Last night I was watching the Monique Show and she was talking about dating yourself. I was so intrigued because that was exactly what I needed. I will never NEED a man again and right now I don't want just anyone. I'm not interested in trying to figure someone out or giving guys a chance when I know deep down it aint gonna happen!! So like my girl Fantasia said" I'm doin me!" I'm going on dates, Im getting dressed up, I'm taking my self out to eat, I'm making myself korney gifts all of that! One thing that Monique said on her show that had me rolling on the floor was:
"Ladies take yourself out to eat, go to somewhere fancy. Oh, you can't afford that? Well next time a man askes you out and he can't afford the fancy resteraunt you think you deserve. Don't be mad because you can't afford you either!"
I summarized that of course but that was too funny to my soul! We expect so much from men, we even make checklist sometimes of what type of man we want to marry. okay so make a checklist, men you too, come on I know I just made fun of women who do it but make one. Seriously, Go!
I trust you have made your checklist and if not remember God is watching! ha ha. Now, look at your list. Do you posses all the things you have on that list? Have you ever wondered that the things people put on a list are things that they don't posses. I know what you're thinking right now. "Well he/she is going to complete me." This is where the issue is we're looking for someone to "complete" us when in realty (and yes reality to a believer is through Holy Spirit lenses) we will never be complete until Jesus comes back with a tattoo on his thigh (Revelation 19:16) Yeah, I said it, A TATTOO! Look it up my sister/brother. And you thought thigh tattoo's were trashy and un lady like. And to the men it's not just a girl thing, the best man ALIVE did it! ha ha! Excuse me for getting off task I just had give that to you for free.
If you're looking for someone to make you feel better or to complete you, give it up. It's not going to happen. Maybe for a short while, but oh how eternity looks better! You may be saying that opposites attract, and for the most part you're right. But as a woman or man of God there is one thing that should be at the top of your list and that is a man or woman who loves the Lord with all his/her heart, soul, and mind. That is the one my friend that can never be compromised and always has to be the thing that you two have in common.
Be the person you described on that list and if you don't have somethings ask God to make you complete and to transform your mind on what a husband/boyfriend/wife/girlfriend should mean to you.
One of my best friends Candace has taught me by example how to be in love with yourself. She knows that at the end of the day no one could love her more than she loves her self besides Christ Jesus. Because of that she doesn't expect perfection from an imperfect being either girlfriend or boyfriend. I love that about her and I will cherish that lesson forever.
I'm doing this diet for 40 days called HCG and I'm determined to do it all the way. With the help of God I will get through it in the name of Jesus. I have to be honest I did have to make sure I was doing this for the right reasons. First of all if I complain about something I'm going to do something to fix the situation. I'm about to get personal, I hope you don't mind. Second, I've battled that pouch for YEARS and its about time that I get rid of it.Third it well help me stop from saying "I'm gorgeous...but if I could just have a flat stomach" and Fourth, I'm publishing this on the internet setting this goal so I have to stick to it or the next time you see me you won't be like uhhh? ha ha! Most importantly I'm doing this for me. Like my man Drake said "slimin' down preparing for summer, but she don't do it for the man, man never notice, she just do it for herself, she the freakin' coldest." I have to love myself as much as Jesus Christ loves me! Loving the things that he loves and hating the things that he hates. I'm not saying he hates people that don't look like beyonce, but he does not like when you compare yourself to people.
"Each one should test their own actions. Then they can take pride in themselves alone, without comparing themselves to someone else," -Galatians 6:3-5
Loving myself doesn't mean being conceited or arrogant. It means valuing yourself, cherishing yourself, taking care of YOURSELF that includes your OWN relationship with Christ, your skin, hair,toes, nails, clothes,and body.
Go ahead look at yourself in the mirror and say "I look good!" "I'm wonderful" "I'm fearless" because you are! I know because in the bible David told us what God thinks of us.
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
-Psalm 139:13-18
It is important that we realize that the creator of the universe, God, deeply loves us and that, that love ALONE is ALL WE NEED. That it is not man on earth that determines our value. We are who God says we are.
"When you begin to truly believe that the Lord of the universe loves you unconditionally, you will trust the Holy Spirit within without any hesitation."
- Ashley Benson
Wow!This was deep but I thank God for planting this seed in you to write this...and for me to have stumbled across it is such a blessing.Keep it up Ashley!Be & stay blessed.
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